My Personal Transformation 🦋
In 2021, I found myself at my unhealthiest and heaviest weight of 140kgs. I was stuck in a cycle of binge eating, restriction, food guilt and self hate. I had tried every diet under the sun, which would only send me into a deeper spiral when I couldn't stick to it, I felt like a total failure.​ I was struggling mentally and physically, I started to develop health issues like insulin resistance and was physically uncomfortable all the time.
Managing my PCOS & ADHD felt like an endless battle, causing my relationship with food and how I viewed myself to become very complicated and filled with a bundle of very big emotions. I genuinely accepted that this was how my life was going to be and had every excuse as to why I would never change. ​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​
I made a Tik Tok account to document my journey and I remember saying to myself the day I made it, "this is my last shot, if it doesn't work this is how it's going to be." What shifted everything was discovering an approach I had actually never tried, healing my relationship with food and learning how to work with my body, not against it. I started to move my body in ways that enjoyed and eating all types of foods in moderation. I never cut out any of my favourite foods, which helped me let go of the food guilt and food noise that I carried for so many years. Over the years I learnt how to manage my emotions, instead of using food and unhealthy habits to cope.
​​My goal wasn't a quick fix and I wanted something sustainable, a whole lifestyle change. Honestly, I didn't really go into this health journey with many expectations and I had absolutely no idea that my life would be changed in so many ways and that I would learn so much about myself.
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It wasn't always easy, I stumbled and sometimes slipped back into old habits but stopping was never an option. My journey was filled with many ups, downs, challenges and emotional moments. I have faced so many fears, broke barriers and tackled triggers. Whilst my physical transformation was life changing for my health, my mental transformation was the most important part.
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I have lost over 55kgs now, but most importantly I have gained a life that I genuinely love living and a body that I appreciate and respect. I am no longer controlled by food, body image and toxic diet culture. My mission is to help others find their sparkle and not only reach their fitness goals, but change their life forever. I know with complete certainty that this is who and where I am meant to be.
